If it's Friday, it must be Jenny Craig time

Every Friday morning, I roll out of bed, grab some clothes and run to weigh in, before I eat my breakfast and spoil whatever good news I hope the scale will show. In my 2 1/2 years on Jenny Craig, the last three or four weeks, have been the most non-productive.

It all started when I attended a yearly conference a month ago... Actually, I do enjoy this conference. It's a nice change of pace and is actually beneficial to the job I do now. The good: It's ego boosting time, as most of the people haven't seen me for a year, so I hear so many comments about how good I look. The bad: Turns out there were some people with comments that really catered to my weaknesses. It's actually the first time I ever got the kinds of comments I got.

"Be sure to eat now, we don't want you to get too thin!"

"Be careful, don't let it change your personality now. Some people get so ornery and mean. We don't want to lose the same sweet Ann we've always known."

"Remember to eat and enjoy food. Some people are so uptight about what they eat, you wonder why they even bother to go out to eat with you. I hate that! Don't even bother to go out to eat with me if you're going to be uptight about the food!"

I got so many comments like this, I felt I had to prove something. I made sure my plate looked loaded, thought it really wasn't. Half my plate was a salad, a quarter my veggie and a quarter was the main dish. However, I just HAD to make sure to have the dessert, every day of that 3 day conference. Then I'd walk by the people who made some of the above comments, "See, I'm enjoying my food, plus I'm eating". Then when it came break time, my strategy of not denying myself things and having a taste was a little more dangerous, because there were literally a zillion options to sample. Had I done this behavior just one day, then gone back on program, there wouldn't have been a problem. However, after 3 days in a row, apparently the weight poured on. I never knew how much weight came on, as I asked the people at Jenny Craig not to tell me when I weighed in the next week. Last week I asked where I was, and though I was "down" from the week before, I was about 3 lbs heavier than my lowest, before the conference. Finally this morning, I weighed in with a total 204.4 lb loss. I'm now only .1 lb heavier than my lowest. Next week, I hope to break new ground and lose weight I've not lost before!

It boggles my mind, still.... that people are telling me not to get too thin, or telling me to be sure to eat and not starve myself. For a woman who's fought this battle my entire life, I've NEVER had people make those kinds of comments. It's also interesting that I felt like I had to prove to people that I do "eat". Most of my life, if anyone stuck their nose into my personal business of eating, it was to tell me "not" to eat. Guess that's a new milestone for 50! I must be looking fairly good if people worry about me getting too thin! Another highlight: In the last two weeks, I've bought a pair of jeans, and a pair of work slacks that are size 12! They're not tight at all! :-)